I May be Done with This Part

I have never been successful with expressing that all trauma is not the same. I now know that no trauma is the same. It is built experience by experience including non-traumatic ones.

I feel right now that I do not want to try and express this anymore. There seems to be a block where people can only hear worse and can not hear different.

With professionals that they can not hear different makes it harder to stay away from help that is not helpful for all experiences.

I do not really worry about what my therapist is doing. I expect that she is doing psychoanalysis and expressive therapy and what ever else I come up with. In the context of a therapeutic relationship. She knows her ethics. Not as well as I do. Few do.

I over the last few days have processed the coming back from weeks at a MKULTRA facility. Here is the thing. Coming back was worse than being there. Living in a cellar was worse. All deaths were worse. The concept that all trauma is the same made all processing harder.

I can state that if you have ritual abuse in your background you are more likly to have unhelpful therapy. I can state that if you were in MKULTRA and had to deal with cults you are more likly to have unhelpful therapy.

I can state it is harder for a male to get any kinda of help at all.

So did I say that it is worse to be male? NO

Did I say it was worse to be in MKULKTRA and the cults? NO

Is cognitive behavioral therapy applicable to anyone who has had trauma designed by cognative behavioral therapisats. Not in my opinion and unless you have experienced cognative behavioral trauma designed by cognative behavioral therapists or have successfully treated someone who has I do not find you opinion more credible than mine.

Please spare me well we are all different or what works for one person may not for another.

Although pissed off right now that is not my passion. My passion is someone else who has had trauma designed by behavioral scientist will hear me and they my look in some other direction.

Note I am also working on my Continuing Education Units. And those people are arrogant allos.

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